I was commissioned, along w a few other sacred artist in 2017 to illustrate a book with meditations on the Stations of the Cross. I love collaborating with creatives to build up the body of Christ!

This reflection is not that book, but sharing the image i painted above. This meditation is from a book i picked up in Medjugorje in 2018, written by Tomislav Ivancic. I love these reflections so much that i visit this book all year long! Im so glad i get to share them here with you.

9th Station of the Cross, Suffering a Total Defeat

I fell a third time. The people believed that that would be my final breakdown. And just when they supposed that i would never make it, I summoned up all my strength, took the cross and dragged it to Golgotha.

A person can go on even if nobody thinks that it is possible. the moment will come when people tell you… “there’s nothing more to be expected from you. It’s the end.” You yourself will think… ” I can’t go on”.

This is the moment of complete helplessness. it is the moment of your surrender, of the realization of your failure. Do you really want to abandon all hope then? Do not be afraid. There is another door, and you will meet Me again behind it. If you can not rely on yourself any longer, I will be there. You will cry from the bottom of your heart and I will answer. It is the cross to lose and to be left alone, to have nobody who believes in you anymore, to be given up. If you accept this cross, i will surprise you with My presence and My strength. You will be able to go to the ends of the earth in My name.

Are you willing to accept this cross? Don’t worry. I am with you. I have conquered the world.

Promise that you will not offend or mock either Jesus or the cross.