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We are that Remnant. Padre Pio is our Saint.

Oh how the Holy Spirit can take our little efforts and make them His.
I’ve had this Pio painting in my prayer space for the past month… every time I
look up from the table I use to set my books and beads on, Pio is there. All
month long, as I consider this work I’ve done, taking it in, I hear the words REMNANT. And indeed there is a piece of clothe that is VERY obvious in this work,
that I haven’t been a fan of, I even tried to pull it off but it tore the canvas.. I
occasionally use fabric in my work, but this particular piece of fabric didn’t
blend into the background as it has in the past.
And one morning, after doing some research, it was revealed to me why…
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Padre Pio was the first stigmatized Priest, sent from God to be a sign for our
times. Francesco Forgione (born 1887) received the five wounds of Christ only
after ordination (1910) when he began offering the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass
and became known as Padre Pio. These visible and bleeding wounds of Christ,
which he had received on September 20, 1918, had disappeared from Padre
Pio by the time that he completed his last Mass on September 22, 1968 – two
days after the 50th Anniversary. The wounds were related to the Holy Sacrifice
of the Mass. When it was announced that experimental changes to the Traditional Latin Mass, so loved by Saint Padre Pio, would take place in the mid1960’s, Pio did not hesitate to request permission from Rome to continue offering the Immemorial Tridentine Mass. It is said that permission was granted in
consideration of his advanced age, fragile health, and poor eyesight.
By the time the Novus Ordo Liturgy was promulgated by Paul VI on April 3,
1969, Padre Pio had been dead for six months, therefore Pio never Novus Ordo
Mass.
There always was, and still is, a remnant of the faithful who stayed with the
Traditional Latin Mass. Always remember, and let no one ever discourage you:
“…At the present time there is a remnant left, selected out of grace”
(Romans 11:5).

We are that Remnant. Padre Pio is our Saint.

The 9th Station of the Cross

I was commissioned, along w a few other sacred artist in 2017 to illustrate a book with meditations on the Stations of the Cross. I love collaborating with creatives to build up the body of Christ!

This reflection is not that book, but sharing the image i painted above. This meditation is from a book i picked up in Medjugorje in 2018, written by Tomislav Ivancic. I love these reflections so much that i visit this book all year long! Im so glad i get to share them here with you.

9th Station of the Cross, Suffering a Total Defeat

I fell a third time. The people believed that that would be my final breakdown. And just when they supposed that i would never make it, I summoned up all my strength, took the cross and dragged it to Golgotha.

A person can go on even if nobody thinks that it is possible. the moment will come when people tell you… “there’s nothing more to be expected from you. It’s the end.” You yourself will think… ” I can’t go on”.

This is the moment of complete helplessness. it is the moment of your surrender, of the realization of your failure. Do you really want to abandon all hope then? Do not be afraid. There is another door, and you will meet Me again behind it. If you can not rely on yourself any longer, I will be there. You will cry from the bottom of your heart and I will answer. It is the cross to lose and to be left alone, to have nobody who believes in you anymore, to be given up. If you accept this cross, i will surprise you with My presence and My strength. You will be able to go to the ends of the earth in My name.

Are you willing to accept this cross? Don’t worry. I am with you. I have conquered the world.

Promise that you will not offend or mock either Jesus or the cross.

Election 2020

Gosh… im on shaky ground here, as I’ve never wanted to put my prayer time or a Word from the Lord in writing… except in my private prayer journal. Sure, I’ve shared in person with friends and people i pray with and I have shared with you some of the images that the Holy Spirit has shown me when i paint the Saints, but even that is hard… and never in writing. If i could share this anonymously, i would, and i thought about saying… “got this from a friend” even my preference now would be to keep this tucked away, but, we have come to a place and a time when we must be courageous in any way that the Lord would call us. For me, as silly as it sounds here when i write it, it’s sharing these private encounters with the Lord. For who am i, that the Lord would make Himself known to me… to any of us? And yet He does.

God is love. And He loves us each uniquely, with a love that can not be duplicated for another. As His daughter, i want to receive His love so that i can offer it to others.

In sharing the below message, my only desire is to offer the Father’s hope, comfort and peace.

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For weeks, collectively the Holy Spirit has been moving in His people about a “VICTORY”. Many friends and prayer warriors have talked about this, saying “I sense a VICTORY” and I felt it too. In fact, i woke up each morning, as the days drew closer to the election with a victory song in my heart… “I’m gonna see a victory. For the battle belongs to You Lord” . (This song is embedded below) Last week, the Lord spoke to my heart and said, “ I finish what I start” and I applied that Word to this victory and believed that it meant the re-election of Trump, which i still hope for very much. I am a Catholic, i am obligated by my beliefs to vote for those who will uphold the sanctity of life and to protect the sacraments, like marriage.

Today, the day after the election, we now are seeing that this may draw out for days, weeks, and even months… I have started to wonder if this victory is much different than what I assumed, and so i asked myself just what would the ultimate victory be and what would it mean to win the war? The answer for us all is to cooperate with God’s grace so that we can overcome the evils of this world and be with God in heaven for eternity.

While in prayer yesterday, I had a strong wave of love come over me, and the Father spoke to my heart about what a great privilege it is to be united with Him in this particular time of salvation history, that He has chosen each and every soul alive today to atone for the sins of mankind and usher in the triumph of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, who will crush the head of satan.

I recalled this scripture which was the Sept. 20, 2020 gospel reading:

Gospel

MT 20:1-16A

Jesus told his disciples this parable:
“The kingdom of heaven is like a landowner
who went out at dawn to hire laborers for his vineyard.
After agreeing with them for the usual daily wage,
he sent them into his vineyard.
Going out about nine o’clock,
the landowner saw others standing idle in the marketplace,
and he said to them, ‘You too go into my vineyard,
and I will give you what is just.’
So they went off.
And he went out again around noon,
and around three o’clock, and did likewise.
Going out about five o’clock,
the landowner found others standing around, and said to them,
‘Why do you stand here idle all day?’
They answered, ‘Because no one has hired us.’
He said to them, ‘You too go into my vineyard.’
When it was evening the owner of the vineyard said to his foreman,
‘Summon the laborers and give them their pay,
beginning with the last and ending with the first.’
When those who had started about five o’clock came,
each received the usual daily wage.
So when the first came, they thought that they would receive more,
but each of them also got the usual wage.
And on receiving it they grumbled against the landowner, saying,
‘These last ones worked only one hour,
and you have made them equal to us,
who bore the day’s burden and the heat.’
He said to one of them in reply,
‘My friend, I am not cheating you.
Did you not agree with me for the usual daily wage?
Take what is yours and go.
What if I wish to give this last one the same as you?
Or am I not free to do as I wish with my own money?
Are you envious because I am generous?’
Thus, the last will be first, and the first will be last.”

https://bible.usccb.org/bible/readings/092020.cfm

My priest that Sunday preached about how many of us would be inclined to groin or complain about the treatment of the landowner, who of course is God, and how it wasn’t fair that the people showing up late receive the same payment. Then Father said, in all of salvation history, WE ARE THOSE PEOPLE, the last to the vineyard. We come late and yet, because of God’s great love and generosity, we receive the same payment. I thought about how the blood of the early martyrs have come down throughout the ages to continue to sanctify us, and how their perseverance has bestowed such incredible grace, and many miracles. And here we are, in this fine hour, late to the party, and God says… “So the last (that’s us) will be first, and the first (the saints) will be last.”

If the church is truly in the time of the crucifixion, and i believe we are, then we are all on the cross. Would now be the time to pull us down? Would God pull us away from our mission? Would we be able to accomplish our mission of atonement and bringing about the Triumph of Our Lady? The mission of Christ Jesus on the cross… the Father’s Beloved Son, was to atone for sin and give the world Our Lady. This is the mission of the Saints in heaven. This is our mission today.

There will be terrifying times in the last days. People will be self-centered and lovers of money, proud, haughty, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, irreligious, callous, implacable, slanderous, licentious, brutal, hating what is good, traitors, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God (2 Tim 3:1-4) Oh how we have reached so far beyond this… i don’t have to tell you this. I can’t stand to look at it, yet just today i learned that there are symbols for pedophiles, showing what gender and age child they want to rape.

We must not turn away. We must not withhold our FIATS any longer to the things that the Lord is calling us to. We must stare down our demons, stand in the minority of truth and call persecution and suffer a gift, because it is a gift. This is the sifting and it will hurt. God is making us great saints, and He does not pull us down from our crosses.

Yesterday, my husband said… “just think, if we get 4 more years with Trump, he can hold back communism and the New World Order.” It caused me to pause because I knew there was no more holding back… the time has come for the crucifixion… the purification, the beautiful chastisement, which is our share of the vineyard. Though late, receiving the same reward.

When I woke up the morning, I believed 100% that Trump would be re-elected, that the victory had come. think with me for a second, about when Jesus was on the cross, and satan thought he had won. Was Jesus the hunted or the hunter in that moment? Was He a fish on the line? Well, so satan thought until God snatched the victory from his grip and satan realized he had lost the victory he had int he Garden. God had sent His beloved and He made a way for us again . I remember now the wave of love that washed over me yesterday, and I do believe that God finishes what He starts, that he makes a way for us, parts the seas and always wins!

This is the kind of Father we have, and He has chosen us to help Him save souls, because those who have been rescued, rescue others. so that Our Lady can be true Mother to all mankind, crush the head and bring about a new springtime.

United, let’s follow Our Lord Jesus, and all the saints after Him, to the will of our Father, so we can be with Him in Heaven. That is the ultimate victory.

+JMJ+

Nov. 4, 2020 let us meditate on today’s readings:

Reading 1

PHIL 2:12-18

My beloved, obedient as you have always been,
not only when I am present but all the more now when I am absent,
work out your salvation with fear and trembling.
For God is the one who, for his good purpose,
works in you both to desire and to work.
Do everything without grumbling or questioning,
that you may be blameless and innocent,
children of God without blemish
in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation,
among whom you shine like lights in the world,
as you hold on to the word of life,
so that my boast for the day of Christ may be
that I did not run in vain or labor in vain.
But, even if I am poured out as a libation
upon the sacrificial service of your faith,
I rejoice and share my joy with all of you.
In the same way you also should rejoice and share your joy with me.

Responsorial Psalm

PS 27:1, 4, 13-14

(1a) The Lord is my light and my salvation.
The LORD is my light and my salvation;
whom should I fear?
The LORD is my life’s refuge;
of whom should I be afraid?
R. The Lord is my light and my salvation.
One thing I ask of the LORD;
this I seek:
To dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
That I may gaze on the loveliness of the LORD
and contemplate his temple.
R. The Lord is my light and my salvation.
I believe that I shall see the bounty of the LORD
in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD with courage;
be stouthearted, and wait for the LORD.
R. The Lord is my light and my salvation.

Alleluia

1 PT 4:14

Alleluia, alleluia.
If you are insulted for the name of Christ, blessed are you,
for the Spirit of God rests upon you.
R. Alleluia, alleluia.

Gospel

LK 14:25-33

Great crowds were traveling with Jesus,
and he turned and addressed them,
“If anyone comes to me without hating his father and mother,
wife and children, brothers and sisters,
and even his own life,
he cannot be my disciple.
Whoever does not carry his own cross and come after me
cannot be my disciple.
Which of you wishing to construct a tower
does not first sit down and calculate the cost
to see if there is enough for its completion?
Otherwise, after laying the foundation
and finding himself unable to finish the work
the onlookers should laugh at him and say,
‘This one began to build but did not have the resources to finish.’
Or what king marching into battle would not first sit down
and decide whether with ten thousand troops
he can successfully oppose another king
advancing upon him with twenty thousand troops?
But if not, while he is still far away,
he will send a delegation to ask for peace terms.
In the same way,
everyone of you who does not renounce all his possessions
cannot be my disciple.”

Here’s that victory song

Why I give Mary Everything part 1 Marian Consecration

In the late Summer of 2011, just over 2 years after coming into the Catholic Church, God asked me to meet His Mother…well not really asked me, it was more of a standoff. You see, I was like many new converts in the sense that I really wasn’t that attracted to Mary. My feeling was why go to Mary when I can go to Jesus and I often repeated that in my head anytime I felt any interest in learning more about Her. I prayed the Rosary only when we would have a visit from The Pilgrim Queen, which is a traveling Shrine of Our Lady of Guadalupe that visits different homes in a parish and you gather as a family to pray the Rosary and other prayers. But beyond that twice per month visit, I had no desire to recite the rosary and to be truthful, really didn’t look forward to the arrival of the Pilgrim Queen Shrine either.

Catholics that I knew who had a strong devotion to Mary were really the most faithful Catholics, but I didn’t recognize that Mary was the connection to their strong Faith. As a matter of fact, I thought just the opposite was true, “how sad they don’t feel they cant go directly to Jesus”. Im talking about the people who were praying the Rosary daily and a few of these faithful were doing all the decades! Don’t these people have something better to do with their time? They must have no life! Why go through a middle man when you can go straight to the boss?! I just couldn’t wrap my head around Mary, even though I could see the devotion in my most devout friends and I had many poor souls try and explain their love of Mary.

So basically, I was yet again a heathen. That rebel soul that didn’t need Mary. That was until I did need Her because She was to be my only connection to Jesus.

It was summer and I was really starting to feel a spiritual dryness for the first time after coming into The Church. I had been on this amazing journey of consolation and healing for 2 years . For such a long time after receiving Communion I would weep, and im not talking about the soft and gentle tears…Im talking full out sobbing with snot and snorts, it was the ugly cry. I decided at the time that God was trying to humble me through this, embracing Grace that He was giving me because I was always so embarrassed. Yet I knew it to be a grace so I dare not bring a tissue because that would mean I would expect the grace to come. So I would just slobber and wipe everything on my sleeve. I later realized that the bringing of a tissue would have been prudence and I was blessed to have a husband that is good at spotting trends so he later would quietly reach into his pocket and secretly hand me a tissue. I also just recently realized, after telling that story, that He was not trying to humble me, God was healing me. “ Why do you always tell that story as if your were bad and needed to be humbled. Dear child, I was healing you through all those tears for I love you so much.” Yep. Another perfect example of the mercy and love that God has for us. And another perfect example of how undeserving of His love I always felt.

But back to my spiritual high that crashed and burned into a spiritual nothing. All the graces were gone and I was too immature in my Faith to understand that everything is Grace. All I knew is I couldn’t see Him, hear Him, touch Him or feel Him. After communion, nothing. Sitting in adoration, nothing. Prayer time, nothing. So naturally I assumed I was bad so what did I do? More! I prayed more, served more and went to confession more. Still nothing, no consolation. Then what does one do when more doesn’t work? We do it more and we do it perfectly. I became very concerned with not only the amount of prayer but how perfectly I was to pray. Jesus must be angry with me so I would be more perfect. Needless to say that sent me in a tailspin of insecurity and doubt. I had decided that I wasn’t loving people well or enough and maybe I was right. I still fall often in trying to see others the way God sees them. But I had fixed my prayers on this “ Jesus show me how to love” meditation for about a week when one day in adoration Jesus finally spoke and He said 4 words, “Go ask My Mother”. WHAT!? “But Im asking You.” I said. But that was all.

“Jesus show me how to love” continued to be my prayer and Jesus continued to respond to me the same way, “Go ask My Mother.” You can understand how this just totally blew my go directly to Jesus theory. When Jesus says the only way your getting to me is through my mom, it kinda screws with your head. But through Gods patience with me, He redirected me to Jn 14:16 “Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father but through Me.” And I started to reflect on this and ask if this was true with our relationship with Jesus. Could it really be possible that to truly know and love Jesus, we also needed to know and love His Mother? Through His Grace, I started to embrace this person of Mary and of Her being the Mother of Jesus. I had access to Jesus but He wanted more…He wanted me to meet His Mother. He wanted me to understand how to love Him more, through Mary. All along I had been praying for the ability to love others more, when really all Jesus wanted was for me to love Him more. That’s how we love others, by loving Him so that our actions become the consequence of our love of Jesus.

So, again in adoration, I agreed to open my heart up to The Blessed Mother. I said a Hail Mary prayer and I left adoration to go an meet a friend for coffee. On the way out to my car a text pops up from a friend, actually she is every bit a mentor as she is friend and happens to be one of those people who pray the rosary on a daily basis. The text reads “I cant wait to talk to you about this new book study im doing with my Church called 33 Days to Morning Glory! Its amazing!” um, ok…I have no idea what she is talking about but I trust in her discernment so if she says it’s amazing, I know it is! Im happy for her and let her know I can’t wait to hear more. I show up to meet my friend who is actually discerning entering the Covent to become a nun. She is a young women of faith who has challenges like we all do, but really does the best she can to stay faithful. We chat about our relationship with Jesus and life in general. I share with her how God has been calling me to this relationship with Mary and quickly relay to her the accounts that have taken place the last few weeks. “Oh, well you must read 33 Days to Morning Glory!” What, wait…what? “Yes, it’s a new book on Marian Consecration and I think you would really like it.” So, in less than an hour after promising I would open my heart to this relationship that Jesus wants me to have with Mary, two people who I trust and respect tell me to read the same book! YES Lord! I hear You!

Next time, I will share more here about the when, why, how of Marian consecration, which by the way in not just for Catholics! Neither is the rosary just for Catholics, or making the sign of the cross, or Holy water, or the saints… ok. I’ll stop. Mary is the patron of all humanity… every soul on this planet, and She loves you. I hope my story with Mary will help you understand Her love for YOU! I pray that you will grow closer to loving Her back.

I’m dedicating the whole month of May with a series of posts to honoring Our Beautiful Mother. I hope you’ll join me!

Here’s a quick intro to Mary for all believers!

St. Faustina

Apostle of Mercy

As you know by now, before i prepare to paint a Saint, I pray with them and ask, “how would you like to be portrayed?” The only thing that Faustina wanted was to be on her knees under His merciful Rays. She wanted to have a look of peace on her face, submitting herself to these rays, this shower of mercy.

I painted St. Faustina rather quickly but she was quite particular about the depths and importance of the Rays, because of this, the Rays took me over 2 1/2 weeks to finish. They are layer upon layer of color and medium. Finally, Faustina was pleased and the icon was completed. (side note… watching the movie Love and Mercy, i was shocked to see how Faustina instructed artist Eugene Kazimierowski, in the same manner she hounded, i mean inspired me! i cried like a baby in the theater at the confirmation of her guidance. ) In my frustration I complained, “why have you been so hard?!” Her reply was “do you think mercy is easy?” I knew interiorly that she was asking me to be merciful with myself. And I thought of the crucifix.

Jesus died for me in His mercy. Being merciful with myself is really embracing His merciful love in humility.

It takes humility to be forgiving, a lot of humility. When we can forgive ourselves, we are acknowledging that we are a sinner and nothing more, and that we need God.

Someone asked me once the difference between mercy and grace…the crucifix, that is mercy! I finished this icon of St. Faustina on Our Lady of Mercy feast day, Sept. 24… I just can’t make this stuff up! It’s just too good!

He who knows how to forgive prepares for himself many graces from God. As often as I look upon the cross, so often will I forgive with all my heart – St. Faustina

This picture was sent to me by a sweet young lady who took my Saint Faustina icon to The National Shrine of Divine Mercy to be blessed! Wow, oh wow! Felt like i was with her in spirit, and was so happy she shared this with me. xo

The 5th Station of the Cross

I was commissioned, along w a few other sacred artist in 2017 to illustrate a book with meditations on the Stations of the Cross. I love collaborating with creatives to build up the body of Christ!

Fifth Station of the Cross, Simon of Cyrene helps Jesus to carry the Cross.

Allowing others to help you…

Nobody respected me. So many people did I cure, but even they left me, just like those who I was close to. Full of wounds and full of blood, shaken after meeting my mother, I needed loving hands to support me.

The only one who came had to be forced. I longed for help given in compassion and love. Simon had to be forced. Simon had to be forced to help me. It is a cross to find nobody willing to suffer with you in love. If you accept it, you are no longer alone in suffering because I am with you.

And something else. Have courage to allow others to help you. I did it, too, although I am omnipotent. Let others surpass you, let them take care of you, admit it that you need them.

This is a cross and you cannot avoid it. Learn to understand that it is a door to me. Don’t be astonished if all in you opposes this cross, for the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit, what is contrary to the sinful nature. Gal 5:17.

Receive your cross and follow me so you are with me.

“Don’t be afraid to carry the Cross. There is my Son to help you.” message April 5th, 1985

Our Lady of America

Our Lady of America came to me, through the Holy Spirit, while I worked in my art journal. This often happens when i set aside time to be open and explore with the Lord. While i painted her, many words of warning for our country were given and how the US is in a fragile place, due to our turning away from God and turning towards false idols, the evil of abortion and human sex trafficking. We have embraced a culture of death and lost our way to Truth.

I knew immediately that the city inside Mary’s mantle was New York and felt there will be a torrent of water wash over the city. The nest with the single egg in this torrent is very fragile, with just a short time remaining, yet protected by Our Lady, Herself. The wheat spikelet grows out of a rock, in the midst of this torrent, and represent the few faithful who hold back the justice of God by their prayers…pleading for His unfathomable mercy. The 4 stars represent the four regions of our country and the current President and Vice President, chosen by His people, ordained by God. The image of the eagle represents God, who comes to save us by Our Lady intercession. The eagle is found throughout the Bible but primarily in the Old Testament. It is a sign of strength and able to bear much weight, as Moses wrote, “You yourselves have seen what I did to the Egyptians, and how I bore you on eagles’ wings and brought you to myself” (Ex 19:4). This is further symbolized when Moses said of God “Like an eagle that stirs up its nest, that flutters over its young, spreading out its wings, catching them, bearing them on its pinions” (Duet 32:11). The eagle can bear up the young eaglets on its pinions, which are the outer wings. This is basically what God did when He brought Israel out of captivity from Egypt and continued to bear her up in her wanderings in the wilderness.

And finally Our Lady of America overshadows The Statue of Liberty, whose artist was a Freemason and given by the Freemasons and is nothing but a demonic idol. As this work was revealed to me, it pointed me to much evil in the church and in the US, which i am still learning about and trying to wrap my head around. I encourage you to seek these answers for you self and ask Our Lady to guide you… only Truth can set us free.

This image of Our Lady is not a sign of despair, no, not at all. Our Lady of America offers us great hope for such a time as this!! She is an image of justice and reminds us that the victory will always be HIS!

Our Lady of America…. pray for us!

Want to learn more about Our Lady of America? Check here.

Radical Conversion

My heart has been totally inflamed recently by Kanye’s conversion! As a mom of 2 young adults, i get to hear and witness all kinds of pop culture stuff so i have known Kanye and his music for sometime. While I’m not a fan of his older music, due to lyrical content, i am a fan of people who are just full on, that is, they own their stuff and they are who they are. They don’t follow the crowd, they bring the crowd because people respond to authenticity. Kanye is authentic, he is a true original and a free thinker. I dig that.

So for the last 6 months, as I’ve been catching his interviews and seeing his new clothes lines come out, I thought…whoa, now he’s using God as the trend. When he first started having his Sunday services, i thought… oh my, he’s trying to BE God now! Shamefully, i just put him in that box of sin. And then i started to really listen to his music, i realized that God had a hold on him. He went from rapping about whoes’, to telling his wife it hurts him when she dressed promiscuously. This man was being transformed.

At the end of October, i caught this video…

And sure enough… just like that, Kanye has had a conversion!

As a Catholic convert, i know about conversion. Personally i have found that most people, myself included, are converted through lot’s of kicking and screaming. I wish i could claim it was an easy thing for me to die to self, but it’s been tough. I try and offer just a little bit more of myself to the Lord each day, and God faithfully stays with me. One thing He’s shown me is that it’s not my job to fulfill His purpose in my life, it’s just my job to surrender, He will do the fulfilling part.

Conversion is surrender.

When God opened a door for me to join my artist friend, Katie Sahm, in her studio, i wasn’t on board at first. I have my own home studio and just never had the desire to go someplace to show or create my work. I felt so blessed to be able to have this place in my home and a website for orders, this was mostly due to cost and convenience. But, when Katie invited me to join her in a studio she had, i immediately was reminded of a mission that the Lord had laid on my heart in March, “to go after the hardest of hearts.” He showed me right away, that this was a door to that mission and my Saint icons would lead the way to conversations about the faith and love of one another.

Last Friday was my 4th, First Friday event. First Friday is when all the artist in the complex open up their studios and welcome visitors with food, wine and conversation. It’s been so amazing to see God slowly at work in these monthly events.

The August opening was SLOOOW. Many people came into the building but most, due to the sacred art, would glimpse in and walk on by. Lord, i asked, what can i do? He said, you will serve the best wine and the best food. Ok…hospitality, YES! I can do that!

In September, just a week before First Friday, the Lord prompted me to walk around to each studio door with blessed salt, and ask Him to bless each studio. So i did and the day after i did, the entire first floor of the building had a water break and flooded and i realized i was right where i needed to be and the Lord was guiding me. That Friday, i had a nice array of food and wine and i stood outside the studio and invited people to come in for a glass of wine. Many did and my friend showed up with a box of 50 blessed Miraculous Medals, and we were able to pass some out and have good conversations w people about the Saints and God.

In October, using the same tactic of hospitality, my friends showed up to help me to evangelize and share the Good News to people who walked into the studio. Many more visitors started to came through and we were on a roll, so to speak. By the end of the night, the Lord sent a young man in who started to quote scripture and claimed we don’t need Jesus, we have God and can go straight to “the Man” . We patiently listened and, through the Holy Spirit, we challenged him on some key things he was missing the truth about. By the end of the night we all prayed with him and he shared that just 2 days ago, he asked God to show him if Jesus was real after an argument he had with his mother. Not only did he find the answers he needed, he came and shared his testimony ( talk about radical conversion, this dude had been through some stuff) to a room full of Catholics at our Wednesday night prayer group. Wow God. The Lord was fulfilling this mission He gave me!

Just days before the November first Friday, i catch Kanye’s video and my heart was truly inflamed! I quickly created the poster you see at the top of this post and knew that we needed to celebrate RADICAL CONVERSION as our monthly theme and reflection. I show up that Friday morning to set up the exhibit and i see this in the main exhibition hall…

This was their All Saints day exhibit! A real mockery of this holy day in the Church and a truly sad and confusing representation of what this day was all about, visually it wasn’t much to look at either.

The readings on this First Friday happened to be the Beatitudes… and the Holy Spirit rang His song in my ear, “Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven” as we prepped for our monthly event in our studio, blaring christian music on our i-tunes.

Our gallery door sits only feet away from this featured exhibit, and the Kanye poster was plastered right by the exit sign. As people stopped to stare at the poster, i invited them in for a glass of wine. Gotta love that hospitality!

By the end of the night, the Lord sent another man who had lot’s of concerns and issues about Mary, Mother of God. We talked with him and prayed together and he took a miraculous medal and his heart was OPENED to get to know Mary more. Open hearts, open doors= conversion!

I don’t share all this with you to say, look at how great i am. Just the contrary, it’s look at how great HE IS! Only God can take a sinner and make Him a saint. Look at Saint Peter, Augustine, Angela of Foligno! Look at me… a sinner, truly nothing else. Yet, He loves!

When i started sharing my art and conversion story, many people fell away from my life. They just couldn’t believe that i had been transformed, they held me in my box of sin, much like i did Kanye.

Jesus, i pray i never hold someone in a place of sin, confined by their past and defined by their mistakes. I know the enemy is already doing that to them. Let me not be an instrument of evil, but rather, help me to lift up those who are being converted, and those hardest of hearts to YOUR RADICAL LOVE. Help me to see all with the potential of radical conversion and how their unique gifts contribute to the Kingdom here on earth. You leave no one behind! We are one in You and when i hold down my brother or sister, i hold down only myself. Forgive me. Amen.

Pray that Kanye becomes a great Saint… this guy’s conversion can influence millions and even change the course of history by helping a generation turn Pro-Life. Again, we are ONE and we belong to each other! Pray for him!

“sing til the power of the Lord comes down” Kanye West

Why does the world need sacred art more then ever?

Many years ago, before i even came into the Church, I joined a brand new parish community, which i am still a part of today. This parish started out meeting in peoples homes, then in a small single building, then a high school, and today, we are STILL building this Church. Something really special and sacred about sticking w a community though the growth of a new parish. Lot’s of grace is needed and offered for those who commit to His plan.

Within a few weeks of completing the first building, an anonymous donor gifted the parish w a beautiful Mary statue for our courtyard. It was powerfully beautiful, bright and greeted parishioners as they pulled up to our parish. Our parish priest, upon receiving it, decided to consecrate the entire parish community to Our Lady. He didn’t know that on the same day he dedicated our parish to the intercession and guidance of Our Blessed Mother, that someone would come in the night and desecrate and vandalize it so badly, that Her face would become marred with hate. This sent out a sad and angry ripple out into our parish. For many years, we continued to see this marring on Our Lady’s statue until recently, when she was restored to the beauty intended by the artist.

This hate for the beautiful, takes on many forms…pornography, self mutilation, and the desecration of our bodies though abuse are an example of this. God gives us our temples of the Holy Sprint, beautiful and chosen. Let’s look at marriage and family today… one of the most beautiful gifts from God, but torn apart by the enemy with division, perversion, and abandonment. We are children of God, beautiful, bright, and yet we let go of this identity and choose the dark. This sends a sad and angry ripple out into the world.

Pope John Paul II quoted the line in his Letter to Artists, under the heading “The Saving Power of Beauty”:

“People of today and tomorrow need this enthusiasm [of wonder] if they are to meet and master the crucial challenges which stand before us. Thanks to this enthusiasm, humanity, every time it loses its way, will be able to lift itself up and set out again on the right path. In this sense it has been said with profound insight that “beauty will save the world” (§16).

This quote, Beauty will save the World comes from a book titled The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoevsky. At the beginning of the novel, the central character Prince Myshkin is shown a portrait of a young woman named Nastassya Filippovna by a Madame Yepanchin, his hostess. She holds Nastassya in contempt because her moral reputation is tarnished.

“So, you appreciate that kind of beauty?” she asks the prince.

“Yes. That kind—” the prince replies with an effort.

“Why?” she asks.

“In that face—there is much suffering,” he says, as though involuntarily, as though he is talking to himself.

“Beauty like that is strength,” one of the other women in the room angrily declares. “One could turn the world upside down with beauty like that.”

Dostoevsky once wrote in his Notebooks, “Suffering is the origin of consciousness.” A novel like The Idiot could only have been created as the fruit of the author’s personal sufferings. If you have heard my story, you know i know just a tad about suffering too. We have all suffered, yet do we join together in the victory of the suffering? Can there be a resurrection without the crucifixion?

The beauty that will save the world is the love of God. This love germinates, flowers, and comes to fruition only in a crucified heart. Only the heart united with Christ on the Cross is able to love another as himself, and as God loves him. “To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.” Isaiah 61:3 KJV

The fight for beauty is a true battleground of the soul and intimately linked to the crisis of faith. As an artist and speaker, i have a unique position on the battlefield. I not only share the art that healed me, i share the testimony of the One who heals.

Recently i have been painting Sacred Hearts for the beautification of this suffering and to help unite homes and families to +JMJ+ Sacred Hearts through home enthronements. Through these works, God continue to remind me that “you can’t create without dying.”

And the dying is so sweet when we do it here on earth! When we offer up our small sufferings to the Lord and for His use, they become a gift of love.

Taken from A Daily Pilgrimage to Purgatory….

“Holy Souls in Purgatory, is there anything you regret when you think of your life on earth? I deeply regret my neglect of acts of mortification. How easy they would have been on earth, but how difficult they are now in Purgatory. Here the smallest suffering is more poignant than the most cruel torments on earth. In the world it meant only patience and resignation in the hardships and adversities of my life; it meant only giving from my surplus to the poor, and devoting myself to works of atonement; it meant only gaining Indulgences and performing works of piety. Nothing could have been easier, and my Purgatory would have been shortened considerably. If God would but grant me the grace to exchange the years during which I must still remain in this place of sorrow for as many years of life on earth! No commands would be too severe for me; no pains could frighten me; the most difficult works of penance would be sweet and give me comfort at the thought of this consuming fire. You who now smart under the insignificant trials and hardships of this life! You who now earn your daily bread by the sweat of your brow, rejoice! The smallest suffering endured in the spirit of atonement and offered to the Sacred Heart in the spirit of expiation, will save you from a long and painful Purgatory.”

So will beauty save the world? When we suffer for the sake of it, it will. Just look at a crucifix.

New Things, New Day

A morning prayer…

” I make all things new! The only thing that never changes is My Love and Mercy. Why are you surprised when I, God, do new things? You are created to be made anew everyday. Struggle with change is really a sign that you are still holding on to control. I make all things work together for your good. Do you trust Me? Rise up in the new day and in the new thing that I’m doing in you.”

Lord I surrender to You and thank you for the gift of recreation and transformation. Help me to more deeply surrender the things, the circumstances or the people who i become enslaved by through my control. Remove any pride in me that says my way is better. It is You alone who i need! Never allow me to stray from Your Transfiguring Love. Amen

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